★LiFe IsN't Ab0uT FiNdInG YoUrSeLf, It'S Ab0uT CrEaTiNg YoUrSeLf★

           When I got ready this morning the horror of being misjugded was already starting to reveal itself. My own brother was doing it. I had to hide it from my mom because she'll think the same thing as my brother. "Ilse's a lesbian!" So what if I was a lesbian? Would it make a difference to them? Would they not love me anymore? Would I die? What?! What wou happen if I was? Would they go against me?

          At any rate, knowing I'm not, I'm probably one of the only ones who wishes she could be, just to go against the normality. Just to rebel against how people want the world to be. Or how they think it should be, anyway. Just to cause anger in people who have NO reason to hate homosexuality. Even if you say there's a reason to hate it, it wouldn't make sence. I can asure that 100%. If people did the Day of Silence, then they would somewhat grasp what they go through everyday. I'm not any type of homosexual and just by people calling me things, and all that, it hurts.

          You might sit down and cry. That's what I felt like doing a couple time in the day. Even though it happened to me, and I'm not a homosexual, I still don't know how they do it. They walk down streets, hallway, and life with  heads high up without lettinanything pass a firewall inside them, that burns every negative thing. Or maybe I don't know how they keep that firewall alive. Fire might be strong and powerful, but it eventually burns out. It seems like they are the fire.

          If I haven't judged them before, muchless now. If people, just for once, forgot about their fears being judged and did something rebellious and outrageous like this, It would change their way of thinking. Rebellious and outrageous don't dscribe what it really is. It's socially unexceptable. Peole hide behind their fears just so they're not exposed to something that's real. Something new. Something they didn't know exsisted. Something called the real world. People would rather be lied to and die knowing lies instead of the truth and only truth. That's what I hate most. I call lies FAKENESS! And the fakeness I'm talking about here is the one where you might have slept with a person of your own sex, even once. To you all I say is don't bash homosexuals or homosexuality period because you're just as bad as you think and/or you make them seem. No even worse. You're a lie. A lie to yourself and to others.

          Now I clearly see who I've respected and admired and how much more respect and admiration they deserve. You should respect them as well, but if you still think the same thing as when you started reading, just know that if anyone of them hate you, they will at least have a reason. Just know many people that seem tolike you hate you just as much as you hate homosexuals for whatever reason.

Love,

Ilse ~mcrqueen~