Mcrqueen's Journals

I'M BACK!!!!!

Okay so for about the past month, I haven't been able to get on because things are kinda crazy. First I moved houses, then we had no internet, TV, phone for a whole month and I was getting addicted to Guitar Hero III. Still am, but not as much. Then yesterday I had a show choir competition to play in and we won second place in the mixed choir. We were in fifth in women's and for band, we were third overall in women's and third overall in mixed. We had a pretty good first competition. I've also been in practice and I couldn't get near in a computer anywhere but in skool, but they're asses on what websites we can visit. I've been doing knee high homework, and all that junk, but now I'm back and yea....lol. I hope to talk to some of you soon, if not send me a message or something and we'll talk.

Laterz

~mcrqueen~
XilseX
XP

GSA's (Gay Straight Alliance) Day of Silence

When I got ready this morning the horror of being misjugded was already starting to reveal itself. My own brother was doing it. I had to hide it from my mom because she'll think the same thing as my brother. "Ilse's a lesbian!" So what if I was a lesbian? Would it make a difference to them? Would they not love me anymore? Would I die? What?! What wou happen if I was? Would they go against me?

At any rate, knowing I'm not, I'm probably one of the only ones who wishes she could be, just to go against the normality. Just to rebel against how people want the world to be. Or how they think it should be, anyway. Just to cause anger in people who have NO reason to hate homosexuality. Even if you say there's a reason to hate it, it wouldn't make sence. I can asure that 100%. If people did the Day of Silence, then they would somewhat grasp what they go through everyday. I'm not any type of homosexual and just by people calling me things, and all that, it hurts.

You might sit down and cry. That's what I felt like doing a couple time in the day. Even though it happened to me, and I'm not a homosexual, I still don't know how they do it. They walk down streets, hallway, and life with heads high up without lettinanything pass a firewall inside them, that burns every negative thing. Or maybe I don't know how they keep that firewall alive. Fire might be strong and powerful, but it eventually burns out. It seems like they are the fire.

If I haven't judged them before, muchless now. If people, just for once, forgot about their fears being judged and did something rebellious and outrageous like this, It would change their way of thinking. Rebellious and outrageous don't dscribe what it really is. It's socially unexceptable. Peole hide behind their fears just so they're not exposed to something that's real. Something new. Something they didn't know exsisted. Something called the real world. People would rather be lied to and die knowing lies instead of the truth and only truth. That's what I hate most. I call lies FAKENESS! And the fakeness I'm talking about here is the one where you might have slept with a person of your own sex, even once. To you all I say is don't bash homosexuals or homosexuality period because you're just as bad as you think and/or you make them seem. No even worse. You're a lie. A lie to yourself and to others.

Now I clearly see who I've respected and admired and how much more respect and admiration they deserve. You should respect them as well, but if you still think the same thing as when you started reading, just know that if anyone of them hate you, they will at least have a reason. Just know many people that seem tolike you hate you just as much as you hate homosexuals for whatever reason.

Love,

Ilse ~mcrqueen~

LoveX Updates

Hey guys,

Okay so I have updates on the band LoveX for those of you who listen to them. They have their new single out. It's called "Take A Shot" it's a great song and if I love it, I know all of you will, too. It came out Febuary 26, 2008. The album will come out in May 2008 for Europe, but will come out in April 30, 2008 in Finland. The album is called "Pretend or Surrender". Go to www.lovex.fi or to http://www.myspace.com/lovexmusicfinland for more information on their ablum and tour throughout Europe. I'm sorry it's not for everyone in the world. I'd also LOVE to see them life.

That's all I have for now Loves.

All my love,

~mcrqueen~

!ilse!

I'M BACK!

Hey guys, sorry I've been gone for so long. My stupid brother erased the whole computer's memory so I haven't been able to have access to the computer or internet but just in school and even then I couldn't get on it. I have a lot to update so you'll be seeing quite a bit for the next couple hundred weeks. I promise! Just hang in there and I'll give you guys updates on my fanfic 'Cancer', my everyday life, vids from artist, and everything you can think of. I'll be here if you wanna talk to me.

Love all of you

~mcrqueen~

Nevada Tan_Ein Neuer Tag: From German to English

A few word are still in German. I couldn't tranlsate them.

German Version

"Ein Neuer Tag"

Ohne Licht auf dunklen Wegen ganz allein
Meine Umgebung wÃ¤chst
Doch ich bleib klein
Zu viel getrunken und zu wenig gelacht
Nichts mehr gegessen und die NÃ¤chte durch gemacht
Warum blick ich nur auf, wenn's keiner sieht?
Warum blick ich nur auf, wenn es dich nicht mehr gibt?

Ein neuer Tag beginnt
Eine neue Hoffnung
Ein erneutes Ende fÃ¼r mich
Wieder ein Kapitel
Doch meine Rolle stirbt fÃ¼r dich
Jetzt lass schon los, denn ich muss gehen!

Bilder der Vergangenheit holen mich wieder ein
Tage und NÃ¤chte sehe ich dein Lachen und Weinen
Ziele der Vergangenheit zu Asche verfallen
Ziele meines Lebens sind abgebrÃ¼ht und kalt
Warum blick ich nur auf, wenn es keiner sieht?
Warum blick ich nur auf, wenn es dich nicht mehr gibt?

Ein neuer Tag...

Ich wusste immer es wird schwer sein allein zu sein
Nicht mehr mit dir vereint zu sein, man
ich mÃ¶chte bei dir sein
Zu zweit wollt ich immer alle Wege beschreiten, doch
jetzt steh ich mir im Weg,
verzweifelt allein dabei
mein Spiegelbild anzuschreien
Kurz vorm heulen
vor deinem Grabstein zusammenfallen
Es ist viel zu viel fÃ¼r mich
deinen Totenschein in der Hand zu halten
Ich bete darum
dass du mich siehst und mich spÃ¼rst
Versprich, dass du mir hilfst und mich berÃ¼hrst!
Denn wie knÃ¼pf ich an ein Leben an
allein, ohne mit dem schÃ¶nsten Menschen aller Zeiten
vereint zu sein?
Ein neuer Tag...

English Version

"A New Day"

Without light on dark paths alone
My environment grows
But I keep small
Too much drinking and too little laughter
Nothing more and eaten by the nights made
Why I only glance up when no one's looks?
Why I view only when you are no longer there?

A new day begins
A new hope
A renewed at the end for me
Another Chapter
But my role for you dies
Now let's already going on, because I must go!

Images of the past, pick me again
Days and nights I see you laughing and crying
Objectives of the past to ashes in ruins
My life goals are boiled and cold
Why I glance only if nobody sees it?
Why I view only when you are no longer there?

A new day ...

I always knew it will be difficult to be alone
No longer with you to be united, we
I want to be with you
Two, I always want all ways, but
Now I stand in the way,
While desperately alone
My mirror image anzuschreien
Shortly before howl
Before your tombstone coincide
There is much too much for me
Your death certificate in hand to hold
I pray That you can see me and I feel
Versprich that you help me and touch me!
For as knÃ¼pf me to a life of
Alone, without with the nicest people of all times

Nevada Tan_Neustart Lyrics: German to English

A few word are still in German. I couldn't translate them.

German Version

"Neustart"

Bin mitten in der Nacht erwacht
hab Ã¼ber so viele Dinge die ich gemacht hab nachgedacht

Und ich weiss wenn ich weiter so leb,
mich niemand versteht
mir immer wieder selber den RÃ¼cken zudreh.
Hau ich ab lass dich im Stich
denn ich lass mich nicht immer wieder Ã¼berreden
noch zu bleiben
Denn ich halts nicht aus
muss raus muss mich schnellmÃ¶glichst
Ã¼berwinden zu verschwinden,
um etwas zu finden woran ich glaub-
und ich weiss nicht, was das istâ�¦

Ref.:NEUSTART

ich muss endlich weg von hier
ich muss endlcih weg von dir?Man ich haltâ�™s hier nicht mehr aus
Verdammt ich muss hier raus
-neustart-
Ich lass alles hinter mir
Ich lass endlich los von dir
Man ich muss endlich raus
Und mich hÃ¤lt nichts auf!

Zu viele Jahre lang hab ich nichts getan
Hab geschworen irgendwann,da fang ich an
Mich loszureissen, mich abzugrenzen,
dich wegzuschmeissen
Und fort zu rennen Ich hab zulange vorgetÃ¤uscht
glÃ¼cklich zu sein
Du hast zu lang geglaubt
wir wÃ¤ren zu allem bereit
Zu zweit- Es tut mir leid
Dies ist nicht der Fall- Bitte verzeih
Dass ich ejtzt geh, doch endlich bin ich frei
Und ich weiss nicht, was das ist..

Ref.

Der Neustart beginnt
Ich hab die langen Tage satt
Der Neustart beginnt
Ich brauche mehr Platz
Man-der Neustart beginnt
Es klappt sicherlich
Ich resette mich,vergiss mich
Ich steh jetzt auf
Ich hab die langen Tage satt und geh zur TÃ¼r
Ich brauche einfach mehr Platz
Verschwinde von hier
Es klappt sicherlich
Ich resette mich vergiss mich
Denn ich werde jetzt gehn!

Ref.

Bin mitten in der Nacht erwacht
hab Ã¼ber so viele Dinge die ich gemacht hab nachgedacht
Und ich weiss wenn ich weiter so leb,
mich niemand versteht mir immer wieder selber den RÃ¼cken zudreh.
Hau ich ab

English Version

"New Start"

Bin middle of the night, awakened
Hab about so many things that I thought made hab
And I know if I continue to live,
Nobody understands me
I myself always backs zudreh.
Hau ab I let you in the lurch
Let me because I do not always convince
Yet to stay
Because I halts not
I must be out soon
To overcome disappear,
Something to find credible what I
And I do not know what that isâ�¦

Ref: NEW START

I have finally gone from here
I must endlcih away from you?
Man, I stop here no longer enough
Damn, I must get out
- Neustart-
I leave everything behind me
I finally let go of you
Man, I must finally get out
And nothing keeps me!

For many years I have done nothing
Hab vowed someday, as I started to
Michelle loszureissen me to discern,
You wegzuschmeissen
And to continue racing I zulange shammed
Happy to be
You have too long believed
We were all ready to
One second I am sorry
This is not the case please pardon
That I ejtzt go, but at last I am free
And I do not know what that is ...
Ref

The restart begins
I got tired of the long days
The restart begins
I need more space
Man-der restart begins
It certainly works
I resette me, forget me
I stand now on
I got tired of the long days and go to the door
I just need more space
Get from here
It certainly works
I resette me forget me
For I will go now!

Ref

Bin middle of the night, awakened
Hab about so many things that I thought made hab
And I know if I continue to live,
Nobody understands me, I always back myself to the back of zudreh.
Iâ�™m pissed off

Nevada Tan_Vorbei Lyrics: From German to English

A few words are still in German I couldn't translate them.

German Version

"Vorbei"

Bis du mich vergisst
Bis du mich vergisst
Es gibt Tage, da hab ich Angst
All die Farben zu vergessen, die du mir gabst
Es gibt NÃ¤chte, da lieg ich wach
Und Denk an unser Versprechen, das langsam zerbrach
Das Bild an der Wand, fast weiss und leer
Die Geschichte die wir malten, verblasst immer mehr
Es sollte bleiben, wie damals,
Doch die Zeit verfÃ¤rbt sie zu sehr

Ref.
Vorbei, vorbei die letzte Frage
Und ich weiss, verloren sind die Tage
Es ist vorbei, ich finde neue Ziele
Wieder Frei-Ich weiss, es gibt so viele
Die Vergangenheit schweigt

Der letzte Sommertag lag nah
Unsere Schatten spiegelten sich auf Regennassen Schienen
Der Weg nach Hause war hart
Einen ganzen Sommer lang hatten wir gesiegt(und jetzt?)
Das Bild in der Hand war grad gemalt
Die Wochen machten uns erwachsen, doch (Doch!)
Es gab nichts wichtigeres
Als unsern letzten Tag

Ref.

Und jetzt denk ich zurÃ¼ck, und denke an dichDenk an unseren Sommer und frag mich, wo du jetzt bist
Wie du jetzt bist
Und wie du lachst, wie du weinst
Wie du schlÃ¤fst, wie du schreist
Denkst du ab und zu an unsere gemeinsame Zeit?
Doch dann tauche ich auf
Schnappe nach Luft, und mir wird klar
Unsere Zeit ist vorbei
Auch wenn das die beste war
Und dass der Wind schon den nÃ¤chsten Winter bringt
Ich speicher dich ab, so wie du warst
Als den schÃ¶nsten Sommertag

Ref.

English Version

"Past"

Until you forget me
Until you forget me
There are days, as I fear
All the colors to forget that you gave me
There are nights, as I lie awake
And thinking on our promise, which broke slowly
The picture on the wall, almost white and empty
The history we painted, more and more faded
It should remain, as then,
But the time it discolored too

Ref
Gone, gone, the last question
And I know, the days are lost
It's over, I find new targets
Re Frei-Ich know, there are so many
The past is silent

The last summer was close
Our shadow reflected on rain-Assen rails
The way home was tough
A whole summer long, we had won (and now?)
The picture in the hand was painted grad
Weeks made us grow, but (Yet!) There was nothing more important
As our last day

Ref

And now I think back, and thinking of you
Think of our summer and ask me where you are now
As you are now
And as you laugh as you crying
As you sleep, how you flush
Thinking of you from time to time to our common?
But then I plunge
Schnappe for air, and I will clear
Our time is over
Even if that was the best
And that the wind is already the next winter brings
I speicher you, as you were
As the most beautiful summer day

Ref

â˜…Casey Calvertâ˜…

â˜…CASEYâ˜…

This is from their website! Please be respectful! I beg you!

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Nov. 24^th 2006

Today is probably the worst day ever. Its with our deepest regrets that we have to write this.

â˜…Casey Calvertâ˜… passed away in his sleep last night. We found out this afternoon before sound-check. We've spent the entire day trying to come to grips with this and figure out as much as possible. At this time we're not sure what exactly happened. Just last night he was joking around with everyone before he went to bed. We can say with absolute certainty that he was not doing anything illegal. Please, out of respect to Casey and his family, don't contribute or succumb to any gossip you may hear. We don't want his memory to be tainted in the least. Casey was our best friend. He was quirky and awesome and there will truly be no others like him! His loss is unexplainable. As soon as we know more we will let you know.

Sincerely,

Hawthorne Heights

Eron, JT, Micah and Matt

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We feel the same way. Itâ�™s so sad to lose a great artist like him. He was only 26 years old and he was a great guitarist and he had some lungs on him. He could scream like no other. Our best wishes go to him, his family, his fans, and his band. Please leave your best wishes for them all here. Hawthorne Heights is a great band. Iâ�™ve posted a pic and my fave video of HH. You should checkâ�™em out. Theyâ�™re amazing!

We love you! Best hopes for you wherever you are! Youâ�™re a great person youâ�™ll live in our memories. Youâ�™re a great star! We donâ�™t have a moment of silence because you deserve much better than that. You deserve a moment of applause!

â˜…R.I.Pâ˜…

â˜…CASEYâ˜…

!Ilse!

~mcrqueen~

Last day of THE DARK!

Okay so yesterday was my last marching band competion and it was a lot of fun even though we didn't place. All of the bands there were good in their own definition. The Pike Crimson Rage (my band) wasn't diappointed becuz we ended on a good note and we did extreamly good. I was sad becuz this was the only year I was allowed to share with my bro. We don't get along all the time, but still it was kinda emotional. This was also my VACATION. Meaning I didn't get a vacation. It was all worth it though. We had to go to St. Louis, Missouri to compete. It was a 4 hour drive from Indy. We did a couple stops to get food and stuff. On the buses we played truth or dare and this guy named Jon was dared to lick the dirty ass floor it was funny a hell cuz he did it. Then Mackenzie was dared to sniff his dirty ass socks it was halarious and David was dared to kiss the sock on Jon's foot. It was the most halarious thing. I was dying. I got dared to put my head in the one of the cabinets at the top where people put their bags, pillows, blankets, and all that good stuff. I almost died but I did it. The bus went to a fast halt and yea you get the rest. I just got home at 11:30 last night. I don't konw if I'm gonna be allowed to do it next year so I cried. I might have to go back to Mexico and I really don't want to becuz I really want to do this. All of it was so much fun!

That's basically it for now! Later thanks for taking time to read this! Love you guys! Bye!

~mcrqueen~

Cancer-Chapter 7: Meet The Heroes

Another week since James had died. Everyone seemed a lot better. Melady didnâ�™t feel weak or anything. She felt normal. Melany was in the room with everyone. They were listening to Meladyâ�™s ipod on her speakers so that everyone was able to hear. They were listening to My Chemical Romance. Everyone who was in the room loved the band. Basically everyone felt the same thing when they listened to them. They all that the music created a shelter for them. They felt release in their songs. Either that or everyone just thought they were plain what everyone calls KICK ASS! They all thought, felt, found all these things and more in their music. It was music that everyone could bury their life in and they could get it even if they hadnâ�™t gone through some of those experiences.

Everyone was just listening to the song. Everyone was in their bed and quiet. All you could hear was the music and people breathing, even if they werenâ�™t breathing through a machine and quiet. They were listing to the song "Helena". Melady loved this song so much, as did everyone else. As soon as the song ended the door slammed open. It sounded like a rocket bursting into a building. And since everyone was so quiet, everyone got startled.

"Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh,"everyone yelled. It was Meladyâ�™s parents. They looked extremely happy.

"Guess what?!"asked her mom.

"What?!" Everyone said.

"Guess who we got to come and talk to you?!"she asked super excited.

"Grandma,"Melady said in a very happy voice.

"No. Who have you wanted to talk to since day one?"

"Hu,"Melady thought for a second,"Ummmmmmmm......Hilary Duff?"

Everyoneâ�™s face had a small "WHAT THE HELL?" look on it and it looked as if there were question marks glowing above their heads. Something that you would see in a cartoon when the characters are clueless

"No,"said her mom. As soon as she said it, a group of guys came into the room. They were all wearing everyoneâ�™s favorite color, BLACK. No one could believe their eyes. It was the best band in the universe. It was all of their heroes. It was MCR .

"We heard we had a fan who wanted to talk to us,"Gerard said as he came in.

"More like ten,"said Angel. She couldnâ�™t count so she didnâ�™t really know how many exactly.

"Oh my God! Itâ�™s really them. They arenâ�™t in my dreams,"said Nikki.

"Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh,"Melany yelled as she each one of the guys one."Am I dreaming?"

"If youâ�™re dreaming then weâ�™re having the same dream,"Melady said with her jaw dropped.

"Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh,"Melany kept screaming. Everyone had their hands over their ears.

"Could you scream any louder?"Melady asked her.

"I dunno. Let me try." And thatâ�™s exactly what she did.

"It was sarcasm. I didnâ�™t really mean try it again."

"Seriously can she scream any louder?"asked Bob.

"I donâ�™t know. Sheâ�™ll try though,"said Melady.

"Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh, he just said, â�˜Seriously can she scream any louder?â�™, he thought I was annoying."

Everyone just started to laugh hysterically. She was also jumping up and down like a little two year old having to go to the bathroom. She actually made a retarded kid look smart.

"So whatâ�™s up?"asked Mikey.

"Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh, he just said,â�™So whatâ�™s up?â�™. Everyone turned to look at her.

"Forget about her. Nothing much is up, really. Iâ�™m just in the bed that I canâ�™t get up from, because every joint in my body will hurt. Since I have bone cancer and lung cancer itâ�™s kinda impossible for me to do anything. Other than that everythingâ�™s great. Beautiful day, huh?"

"But itâ�™s raining,"said Bob.

"Oh well yeah, but uh..........well you know.........since you guys came in, itâ�™s been a beautiful day,"Melady said trying not to make a fool out of herself. Which was of course too late.

"How are you guys?"asked Nikki.

"Weâ�™re good. How are you guys?"said Ray.

"Great,"everyone answered.

"Who are all these kids?"asked Gerard.

"Oh ummm.... we all kinda have cancer,"said Melady. As soon as she said it their eyes had already built up tears.

"Oh,"the guys said. Everyone could tell that Gerard felt guilty for asking.

"Itâ�™s okay,"said Nick.

"What?"asked Frankie.

"We know you guys felt guilty for asking. Itâ�™s not a big deal. We all have to die someday and thereâ�™s nothing we can do about it. All we can really do it fight until the end and not give up until everything happens,"Melady explained.

"Thatâ�™s true,"said Gerard.

"You guys taught me that through you experiences. You guys didnâ�™t give up until you found something you liked. You almost died finding it, but you found it. We will all follow you example." All of the guys smiled.

"So what do you do in this scary place?"Gerard asked.

"Well, first not pay attention to the needles. Then we just lay here and joke around most of the time. We really canâ�™t do anything else,"Melady said. There was an awkward silence. "Have you guys ever felt a dead person fall over you?"

"A what?"asked Frankie.

"A dead person. Itâ�™s when you feel something is over you and you try to push it away from you, but it always comes back. You canâ�™t scream, move, or open your eyes. Youâ�™re not asleep but you canâ�™t open your eyes."

"Now that you mention it, yes,"said Mikey."I didnâ�™t know if I was the only one who ever felt that but yeah. Thatâ�™s why I didnâ�™t tell anyone about it."

"So have I,"said Bob.

"Me too,"said Ray.

"Yeah me three,"said Frankie.

"Me four,"said Gerard.

"I donâ�™t know if I should ask this or not. I donâ�™t want you guys to feel sad or make you guys cry,"Melady said.

"Go ahead,"said Bob.

"Okay, well Gerard and Mikey I know your grandma died, if you could talk to her once again, what would you tell her?"

"I would tell her how much I miss her. I would hug her and thank her for everything she did for me when I was little. I would thank her for pushing me toward the arts. I would thank her for teaching me right from wrong. I would tell her how much I love and Loved her and how much she means so me,"Gerard said.

"Me too,"said Mikey.

"And what would the rest of you tell the people youâ�™ve lost?"Melady asked the rest of the guys.

"That we love them and how much they meant.......mean to us. How much they helped us,"said Ray answering for the rest of them.

"How do you guys tell a girl that you like her?"asked Nick.

"What?!"everyone asked at the same time.

"How does this come into the conversation?"Larain asked.

"It doesnâ�™t. I just wanted to get away from the sad moments,"he said.

"Ohh okay,"everyone said.

"You want a serious answer?"asked Gerard

"Yeah,"said Nick.

"I have no clue. Iâ�™m bad with girls."

"What?!"all the girls said, including Angel.

"Is that hard to believe?"he asked.

"Yeah kinda,"Larain said.

"Well yeah ask the other guys,"he said.

"Just be yourself and just tell her the truth,"said Mikey.

"Yeah donâ�™t fake anything about yourself,"said Ray.

"If she doesnâ�™t like you then she wasnâ�™t the girl for you and you should just live with it,"said Bob.

"Yeah,"Gerard and Frankie said lost in thought.

"Well Melady since these guys know what the hell theyâ�™re doing, and since they gave me some strength to do this. And since I need to tell this to someone before I leave, which I hope itâ�™s not too soon. I want to ask you something. I have always tried to ask you this but I never wanted to because I was scared that..........."she stopped him before he fainted.

"Nick can we hurry the speech up?"she asked.

"Yeah Iâ�™m getting old,"said Larain.

He threw dagger eyes at her and she just stuck her tongue out at him.

"Melady, do you want to be my girlfriend?"

She thought about it for a second. Everyone was just looking at her just waiting for her answer. Even Gerard, Mikey, Frankie, Ray, and Bob were looking at her and leaning in toward her.

"Whyâ�™s everyone looking at me like that?"Everyone leaned back and looked at a different direction scratching their necks.."Well, Nick, it all depends on one thing."

"What?"he said anxiously.

"Do you want to be my boyfriend?"

"Yeah,"he said as soon as she finished her question,"Iâ�™ve never felt like this over a girl and youâ�™re the first one Iâ�™ve ever felt something like this for."

"Then I guess you got a girlfriend." Everyone just smiled.

"Why me though?"Melady asked curiously.

"Since the first day I saw you I loved you. And then I met who you really were and that made me love you more. And because you helped me get through Jamesâ�™s death. You knew how much he meant to me and even though you loved him yourself, you let him go. You made me feel better. You knew things I didnâ�™t. And I thank you for all of that and thatâ�™s how I knew you were the one for me,"he said.

"Whose James?"asked Bob.

"He was our friend. He was only five and he died in this hospital in front of us,"Melady said quietly."He slept in that spot. We all miss him."

"What type of cancer did he have?"asked Ray.

"He had lung, bone, throat cancer, and had been detected with diabetes not too long ago,"Larain explained.

"Wow, how long did he survive with all of that?"asked Frankie.

"You really want to know?"asked Nikki.

"Yeah,"they all said.

"Five years. All of his life,"said Nick.

"Wow, he was a strong little kid,"said Mikey.

"He was also a fan you guys,"Melady added.

"Letâ�™s talk about the future and not the past,"said Angel.

"Okay,"Melady said.

"How are you guys doing on tour?"Adam asked. He finally talked.

"Weâ�™re doing good. Weâ�™ve had more then 50,000 people come to our shows. This was just in 4 shows we did,"Mikey said.

"How are you and Alicia doing?"asked Nikki.

"Weâ�™re really good."

"Thatâ�™s good. How are you and Jamia, Frankie?"

"Weâ�™re also good."

"Thatâ�™ good."

"How are you families?"asked Larain.

"Theyâ�™re all good. Theyâ�™re happy and everything,"said Ray.

"Bob, I have always wondered this and I know you probably wonâ�™t want to answer this, but uh..............whoâ�™s that skank who hurt you?"asked Melany.

"I donâ�™t want to remember that. I have gotten over that.,"he said.

"Oh okay, we understand,"she said to him holding his hand to try and comfort him. To Melady it seemed more like she was trying to make him forget about his horrible past.

"Thanks,"he said.

"Where are you going for next tour?"Melady asked.

"Weâ�™re going to Japan,"Mikey said.

"SUSHI!"Melady and Melany yelled at the same time.

"Sorry,"Melady said. They looked a bit freaked out."We just have the tendency to scream that whenever we hear the word Japan."

"Ohhh,"they said.

"How long is the tour going to be?" asked Nikki.

"Three months,"Frankie answered.

"Can you bring us a souvenir and weâ�™ll pay you back?"asked Nick.

"NICK!"everyone yelled but the guys. They just chuckled under their breath.

"What? I said weâ�™d pay them back."

"Still you canâ�™t ask them that. They were nice enough to be here and you ask them to bring you something else. They took time out of their busy schedules just to be here. They probably had something more important to then to be here,"Larain said. She still wanted to keep going.

"Okay, I get it. Jeez! I shouldâ�™ve never opened my big mouth."

"Uh-hu,"everyone said but the guys.

"Do they always fight like this?"asked Ray.

"Oh yeah, maybe even more,"Angel said.

"More?"asked Gerard.

"Oh yeah,"she replied. They started to laugh.

"Donâ�™t you ever get tired of them?"asked Gerard.

"Naw, you at lease have something to laugh about in this place. Here thereâ�™s only two things. Sadness and pain. They give us something to laugh about. They just bring laughs. Now just put Adam, Nick, and Larain in the same room and youâ�™ll have a laugh attack. And just make sure you have a dipper,"Melady said.

"Nice,"said Mikey.

"I know right."

"Yep,"the rest of them said.

"We shouldâ�™ve been here a long time ago,"said Gerard.

"Thatâ�™s true,"the rest of the guys said. When that was over, someone came in.

"Hey Brian,"said Gerard.

"Guys we have to go,"he said.

"No,"said Bob.

"You have to,"Brian responded.

"No,"the guys said with a sweet little voice and putting puppy eyes and everything.

"Yes,"he said.

"No,"they said again.

"Guys just go before you make him have an attack,"said Nikki.

"But we donâ�™t want to leave,"said Ray.

"Go and do what you always do,"said Melany.

"Yeah whatâ�™s that?"asked Mikey.

"Go help people,"Melady said.

"Where are you going?"Larain asked.

"Weâ�™re gonna be one TRL,"Frankie said.

"Oh then weâ�™ll be watching,"Melady said.

"You will,"they all said.

"Yeah,"we all said.

"Okay then we have to catch a flight,"said Ray. Before they left they gave the girl a kiss on the cheek and the guys on handshake.

"Weâ�™ll come back,"Bob said as he was leaving, and Brian pushed all of them out,"and weâ�™ll stay in touch."

"Okay, bye,"we all said. They were taken away and they were all surprised they werenâ�™t scared to touch them. Even their families are afraid to do it. Thatâ�™s probably another reason why they loved them so much. Without noticing it was already time to take more medications and sleep. Not because they were sleepy, but because the medications were so strong. They would be asleep for the rest of the day.